“To love at all is to be vulnerable. Love anything and your heart will be wrung and possibly broken. If you want to make sure of keeping it intact you must give it to no one, not even an animal. Wrap it carefully round with hobbies and little luxuries; avoid all entanglements. Lock it up safe in the casket or coffin of your selfishness. But in that casket, safe, dark, motionless, airless, it will change. It will not be broken; it will become unbreakable, impenetrable, irredeemable. To love is to be vulnerable.”
CS Lewis, The Four Loves.
There is no surety in love, except
its fall, and this as certain as its rise.
Perhaps unmet, unmatched across the void,
or maybe matched only to meet an end
by bitter words or bitter death, or left
behind by checkered changing ways,
it cannot last.
because the price of love is always pain,
then should I stay, and make instead
a wall? Wear out my days in grim fatigue,
or press into an icy crystal pleasure,
cold and numb? let vapid duty drain it
of it’s blood, let worming wearing doubt
unseat it’s strength?
I cannot, for you call me, Lord, to love.
Not shirk its price but enter wholly though;
be fully in, embrace the curling fire,
the wound that’s waiting for it’s day; to fall
towards the awful fare and follow you
who loved the most, who knew the most how high
the price must go.
@ecnance Jan 2018